The "lasts" are starting to happen... my last shift at the salon was today, my last final is tomorrow, my last bowling party is tomorrow night, my last day of gardski's is wednesday... needless to say, it's starting to hit me that I am moving.  It's a weird feeling.  I don't know how to explain it.  I'm sad.  Not like I'm making a wrong decision sad... things are just going to be different now... no more walking into Heather's room to talk about anything and everything for hours, no more QT with Stokes, no more FAFing at gardski's... and I'm just sad.  There are a lot of things I am going to miss... and a lot of people...

So... my job really annoys the crap out of me.  Good thing I only have about 10 days left.  I think I would definately have to quit if I wasn't moving.  I want to continue to like the people I work with... not sure that would happen if I stayed much longer.  And I know I'm not the only person there that feels like that.  I know I'm just frustrated tonight, but thing just build up and I've had enough.  I work a double tomorrow too... that is gonna be great!  I'm ready to work for a "real" company now...

This last week of school was so stressful... it was ridiculous.  I had a paper due or a test every single day.  But all I have to worry about now is finals!  I'm not going to have the best grades... which is interesting because my attendance was better this semester than ever before.  I'm not really sure how that worked out but oh well... I'm past the point of caring now.  I just want that trust fund money!

Today was a long day... I need rest... goodnight...

I move in exactly 4 weeks... just 4 weeks.  That isn't long at all.  I am only losing 6 hours... pretty excited about that.  I will graduate Dec. 2006... 4 1/2 years in school... not too bad if you ask me.  Walking around campus yesterday after I got advised, I just got the feeling that this was the right thing to do... to end up where I had always planned on going in the first place.  It just took me 3 years to realize that.

I wish I didn't get sick so much.  What the hell is wrong with my immune system?  Being sick makes me cranky... I wish I would have been in a better mood.  4 weeks isn't long really... except when that is the amount of time I have to go without seeing you.  I wasn't very good about making our time together fun today... but I have another reason for that besides being sick. 

I'm kind of mad... I don't really know if I should be... but I am... and I wish I could just ignore it... but I can't.

5 1/2 more weeks of school.... and 6 1/2 more weeks of Lubbock.... I have so much left to do.  Packing sucks and I really do not look forward to it.  Although, I'd almost rather do that than all my school work, haha.  I definately think that school work sucks more.  But I have decided not to stress anymore.... I'm just gonna do what I can and not worry... well, I'm at least gonna try....

Easter weekend was fun.  I had my baby there for part of it to help take care of me and get me all better and while he was gone, it was really nice to be surrounded by my entire family.  My papa had a great weekend.  I haven't seen him smiling and laughing as much as I did last weekend.  It was great.  Thanks for the prayers... they have been working.  Keep 'em coming.

You're right.  This does suck.  All I want is to be with you right now.  We say how much we miss talking to each other, but it doesn't change anything... why not... I'm not really sure.  I'm sorry for that.  Lately, this has been really hard... but no matter how hard this is, you will always be worth it.  There is nothing that could ever change my mind about that.  The feeling I get when I see you, kiss you, and even hear your voice, is the best thing I have ever felt.  I wish I could have that feeling right now...